Dear Grandma…two years later

two years ago today

my world got a little darker

my days got a little harder

and my pain came a little stronger

two years ago today

the laughter turned to silence

as I watched my guiding light

my hero

lose her fight

two years ago today

she wispered “ I love you”

and went quietly into the night

my hero gone

and I was left alone to sit and wonder why?

it never gets easier

to remember the past

to think of her name

or to wonder what if things had been different

to wonder why her?

to wonder why anyone?

to wonder how such a pain could exist?

to wonder if it is possible to ever heal?

to wonder if I will ever feel whole again?

so many things have changed in those two years

but our love

our bond

will live on

forever together

no matter how long it has been

since we last wispered

“I love you”